The Hello Blog

I have come to realize that life is every changing and the key is to make sure that you try and keep up with it. My issue is that I can keep up with life...it is the keeping up with me that I have trouble with.

I have also come to realize that after a divorce...getting remarried...having four kids...going back to school...moving around this country for the past 14 years...and losing a relationship with my sister, that you can't really ever go back. I have been telling myself since the birth of my last child about 6 months ago, that when I get back to "this" I will be happy. But what is "this?" I am not going to be the same person I was before I became a wife and mother. And to be honest I would not want to be that person.

What I now have to come to realize, which is hard for women like myself, is that after four babies and being 32 my BODY will not be the same. Now that is something that I struggle with on an everyday basis. I have tremendous body issues that I truly hope to overcome...so does my husband! So why is it easy for me to accept that my mind has grown and changed and I am fighting the acceptance of my body changing? Well, this will be my journey to try and answer that question.

I can tell you right now that I will not blog everyday...and I can't tell you that my post will not being missing words here or there...but what I can tell you is that I am going to be painfully honest. I know that some days will be great and some days are going to really suck but things like this are not meant to be easy...if it were you would not treasure it once you get there.